howlbymoon

ok, so i will try to do some goretober posts while i still can! i found this list here and will either choose the one i am in the mood for the most or i will pick randomly. 

I exist in the present
i am stuck in the past
im not ready for the future
how long will I last

Oh god. I wanna draw but I left my art book in Texas, and I'm in Michigan. I barely started reading my summer book for school, but I figure it's not gonna be all that entertaining. I wanna see my friends but they are literally a 22 hour drive away from me. I miss home since I have been away from it for two weeks or so, and the last day I was there before we left I was feeling sick and couldn't even go out to eat. The week before that I was at a fun camp, but there was a stomach bug going around, and my friend and I were forced to sleeping on the cots rather than the bunks. Fun camp, but I'm weird about germs. Half the kids in our "castle" ( it was just a building with a castle look to it, since it was a renesaunce camp. I could bet money that I spelled the wrong...) and it didn't help that it was raining there a lot. Our pool hour was closed and I had left my bathing suit and towel out to dry. They never properly dried until the end of camp, and they smelled like mildew because of it. In the time that our pool hour was closed, we all stayed in the castle, with nothing to do. We couldn't play our penny whistles, we couldn't practice poi, we could just lay around and talk. And I later found out that the chair I was sitting in was the one that all of the sick kids at camp sat. I was mortified. But yeah. We are going home tomorrow, and arriving Wednesday. Then we have only five days till God damned school. But hey, of I don't meet up with my friends  in those five days, I will see them at school. It's just awkward since I used to date my friend... And we broke up after school ended. And the whole school thinks we're still in love with each other. We will figure it out when we have to.